Entropy

“Sometimes you gotta embrace the chaos in your life in order to find the peace in it, ya know?”

“Entropy signifies a state of disorder or chaos. A measure of uncertainty.”

“It feels like she’s always been here, her scent on my pillow and her voice lingering in these hollow hallways.”

“Embrace the chaos.”

“So, you fed me fairytales.” I swallow down the hurt, hating that it hurts. He’s right, in a way—it did help. It filled me with hope. Something to look forward to.”

“Maybe fighting for your life with someone is the most intimate thing in this world.”

“Indie left my cabin with acceptance in her eyes and closure in her heart—closure that we were over. And here I am, standing in her living room, giving her hope that maybe we’re only just beginning.”

“Like recognizes like. We beat against that current, waiting for the riptide to drag us under.”

“I hug myself against a chill. How did I get to a place where I allowed myself moon over a man who wasn’t feeling the same things I was feeling?”

“We all want to be heard. Seen and appreciated.”

“I’ve always been the avoidant type, resistant to conflict and confrontation,”

“My heart, my stupid heart, starts thumping in my chest.”

“Emerald and indigo swim together as one, drenching me in clarity.”

“Maybe it’s simply the fact that after only three hundred or so seconds, circumstances have bound us together with more intimacy than any length marriage could achieve.”

“Waking up entwined with another human being is something that feels almost… like a promise. Hopeful. It’s like that first hint of daybreak when morning blush swallows the sky and paints the treetops, filling me with the possibility of a new beginning.”

“I got some things off my chest, and he explained his reasons, kind of, and now we’re just… done.”

“Endings are hard.”

“Just because a few pages are lost, doesn’t mean the words cease to exist.”

“Life isn’t for the faint of heart. It can’t be lived without risk.”

“Just because some of my pieces are lost, doesn’t mean I’m beyond repair.”

“I’m realizing we’re surrounded by a million good reasons to do everything we want.”

“We must all choose the things we love, the dreams that choose us.”

“Parents can be a real pain in the ass, you know? It shouldn’t matter what they think, but they have this way of molding you. Shaping your future, your whole goddamn identity, and it’s utter bullshit. They shouldn’t hold that much power.”

“it’s that I’m too fragile for putting my heart out there to be trampled on over and over again.”

“the thing I don’t give myself time to think about… is that I miss him. I miss him in the unhealthiest, most obsessed of ways.”

“I want to know why he said the things he did, made me feel the way I did, and then abandoned me.”

“Panic roars through me at the thought of leaving the house, of even placing one foot over the threshold. It’s stupid, I know. But things happen all the time—crazy, unpredictable, awful things. We’re living proof.”

“Well, you wear your hangover as well as you wear your coffee stains.” “Homeless and inept?”