So Much I Want to Tell You: Letters to My Little Sister

“Remember that the world we can see is the one that really matters, and never lose sight of that.”

“The hardest part of being in an emotionally abusive relationship, it's actually admitting you're in one.”

“You don't know what's right or wrong. You've been told 'you're crazy' 'you´re overreacting' so many times you started to believe that's the truth”

“I was nervous when I approached him about certain topics (...) [I] felta misunderstood for most of our relationship. He made me doubt my sanity and my intelligence. I stayed for as longer as I did because I hoped he would change”

“I find it strange when people ask where ideas come from. As if Stephen King is going to point to a well in the ground and say, 'There. All my ideas come from there.”

“Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but the only beholder that matters is you.”

“At that moment, I knew I wanted to be a mom, but that this wasn’t my time to be one.I knew that if I brought a child into the world, I wanted to give him or her the best chance. I wanted to be in a position to give a child all of my love and attention. I wanted to be with a man who loved me, in a relationship where a child was wanted.”

“Find someone who will inspire you to be a better person, who will make you laugh even when you don’t feel like it, and who is good to you no matter how tough things are. And strive to be that person for them.”

“you’ll only run out of ideas if you close yourself off to things—to new ideas, new experiences, new people. Don’t be afraid to change, to grow, and to learn—that’s the only way to keep yourself creatively vital.”

“If you want to be the star, create the show. Don't wait. Make your own opportunities. There's no better time that to start today.”

“If I had a kid, I would resent him\her for getting in the way of my dreams. Dick wouldn’t have married me, so I’d probably be a single mom, still clinging to the idea that two broken people could complete each other. I eventually came to the same conclusion as dick: neither of us was fit to be a parent. I could almost see him mentally fist-bumping himself.”

“It took me a year of therapy to finally admit that I was in an emotionally abusive relationship. There was a part of me that would always think, “But he’s never hit me, so it’s not abuse. Right?” I didn’t see the manipulation, jealousy, domination and constant blame as abuse. I didn’t see the bursts of anger, screaming, put-downs and shaming as abuse. I’d make excuses for his unacceptable behavior, rationalizing it in my head.”

“I had spent years secretly judging my friends for getting abortions. How could they destroy a life like that? A life that was half their own? How could they refuse adoption? I thought of them as selfish human beings who killed something that never stood a chance. The view was great from that high-ass horse, but of course, when it happens to you, you go through the same reality check that they do.”

“One morning, I was taking a shower and my nipples felt weird. I knew instantly. I went to the drugstore, awkwardly paid for my single item while avoiding eye contact with the cashier and peed in their bathroom three times. The results confirmed what I already knew: smiley face, smiley face, smiley fucking face.”